One of my newer things is out today from new local litjourno SPINDLE, a short interactive BDSM pornografia called ATSAY KILLER. It's the first of a planned trilogy featuring Inday and her Koya, enacting in a passion play of sorts the several collisions of class and gender inherent not only in the power structures of BDSM, porn, and household servitude, but also in the loopy oscillaty dynamics in the menage a trois of reader and writer and text, all in a short story about spanking the maid.

It's also a part of my running project on writing genre stories and novels but doing them in forms other than mere prose on page: ATSAY KILLER is my interactive porn story, SNIP (another hypertext) is my torture horror story, ITEM MITE EMIT TIME (a nivola) is my post-apocalyptic hard scifi story; I am very nearly finished with DEADLIMAN (another interactive novel), my survival horror story (soon, just two rooms of code away!); I'm currently prepping (to maybe re-edit) my romance novel THE LONG WEEKEND (a set of four twenty-hour-komix), an existential dark fantasy komix Apol Sta Maria and I have been planning to do, a soft scifi xeno-paleo-anthro novel (planned to be another interactive novel), a murder mystery cycle based on the Vizconde Massacre (planned to be a podcast), and a Mindanao war story (planned to be a box of eulogical ephemera). Lots of plans! I expect to be doing these things in the next two to three years. All of these stories are meant to be interconnected in the same way that Michael Moorcock's Eternal Champion books and characters - Elric, Hawksmoon, Cornelius, etc - are all interconnected. Allow me my pretentions!!!

But today, it's ATSAY KILLER's debut. I'm hoping I'll be finished with the second one before September, and with the third one this Christmas. I gave myself a constraint for this story - one room, two characters - and as usual, I tried my best. Hopefully, it'll make some peeps try out either interactive fiction (which I plan to teach in a workshop soon) and/or BDSM (no planned workshops for this ... yet).

I'd like to thank the SPINDLE peeps for being so patient with me and this text, most especially April and Clara, and Pepito. Salamat talaga! More power to you! New Pinoy Writing FTW!

My love was like a paradigm.

My love was like a pederast.

My love was like a pirate ship.

My love was like a polemic.

My love was like a pudenda.

My love could be like a dodecahedron.

My love could be like a ziggurat.

My love could be like a Hanging Gardens of Babylon.

My love could be like delivering a goat, a wolf, and a bag of grain across the river in a boat that can only ferry two items at a time, one of those items already the boatman, and you need to deliver the goat, the wolf, and the bag of grain across the river, but if you leave the goat with the wolf, the wolf will eat the goat, and if you leave the goat with the bag of grain, the goat will eat the bag of grain, so what do you do?

My love could be like a Ponzi scheme.

Except for the base, all the sides of my love would be triangular, all converging to a common point, unless it’s Mesoamerican; in that case, each side would be equilateral, including the base. Like a pyramid.

The shape of my love’s construction permits that the least weight be and remain to be on top, gaining weight as it goes down. Like a pyramid.

At nearly 500 feet, my love would be an architectural masterpiece. Like a pyramid.

For thousands of years, my love would be the largest structure in the world. If the Mesopotamians built it, though, it would be built with dried mud, which they will paint brightly, although being made of mud, not much will remain of my love after thousands of years. Like a pyramid.

My love would likely be used either for burial or for human sacrifice. Like a pyramid.

Reunited, by Peaches & Herb

I
I was a fool to ever leave your side
Me minus you is such a lonely ride
That breakup we had
Has made me lonesome and sad
I realize I love you
'Cause I want you back
Hey, hey

II
I spent the evening with the radio
Regret the moment that I let you go
Our quarrel was such
A way of learning so much
I know now that I love you
'Cause I need your touch
Hey, hey

Chorus
Reunited, and it feels so good
Reunited, 'cause we understood
There's one perfect fit
And, sugar, this one is it
We both are so excited
'Cause we're reunited
Hey, hey

III
I sat here, staring at the same old wall
Came back to life just when I got your call
I wished I could climb
Right through the telephone line
And give you what you want
So you would still be mine
Hey, hey

IV
I can't go cheatin', honey; I can't play
I found it very hard to stay away
As we reminisce
On precious moments like this
I'm glad we're back together
'Cause I missed your kiss
Hey, hey

Repeat chorus

V
Lover, lover, this is sudden love
And you're exactly what I'm dreamin' of
All through the day
And all through the night
I'll give you all the love I have
With all my might
Hey, hey

Repeat chorus


Summary: "To my ex - I only have genitals for you."



Bette Davis Eyes, by Kim Carne

I
Her hair is Harlow gold,
Her lips sweet surprise
Her hands are never cold
She's got Bette Davis eyes
She'll turn her music on
You won't have to think twice
She's pure as New York snow
She got Bette Davis eyes

Chorus
And she'll tease you
She'll unease you
All the better just to please you
She's precocious
And she knows just what it
Takes to make a pro blush
She got Greta Garbo Stand off sighs,
She's got Bette Davis eyes

II
She'll let you take her home
It whets her appetite
She'll lay you on her throne
She got Bette Davis eyes
She'll take a tumble on you
Roll you like you were dice
Until you come out blue
She's got Bette Davis eyes

Chorus
She'll expose you
When she snows you
Off your feet with the crumbs she throws you
She's ferocious
And she knows just what it
Takes to make a pro blush
All the boys Think she's a spy,
She's got Bette Davis eyes

Reprise
And she'll tease you
She'll unease you
All the better just to please you
She's precocious
And she knows just what it
Takes to make a pro blush
All the boys Think she's a spy,
She's got Bette Davis eyes


She'll tease you
She'll unease you
Just to please you
She's got Bette Davis eyes


She'll expose you
When she snows you

Fade


Summary: "To the wispy young naif that I sexxed last night who was apparently a closet nympho tranny - you're a better sexxer than most prostitutes I've sexxed. More power to you."



The Search Is Over, by Survivor

I
How can I convince you what you see is real
Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin', you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you

Chorus
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

II
Can we last forever, will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing, these questions of the heart
You followed me through changes and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses through some miracle of fate

Chorus
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

Bridge
Now the miles stretch out behind me
Loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck it finally struck
Like lightning from the blue
Every highway leading me back to you

III
Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search has come full circle
Our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me
Show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain
The man I really am

Chorus
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Then I touched your hand, I could hear you whisper
The search is over, love was right before my eyes


Summary: "To my sister - I know you enjoyed our sexxing, too, so let's drop all pretense now and tell mom and dad that you are now eating for two, ie, you now carry in you our future sibling-progeny."



Hopelessly Devoted To You, by Olivia Newton-John

I
Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know there's
Just no getting over you

II
You know I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But baby can't you see there's nothing left for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

Chorus
But now there's no way to hide
Since you pushed my heart aside
I'm outta my head hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you

III
My head is saying fool forget him
My heart is saying don't let go
Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

Chorus
But now there's no way to hide
Since you pushed my heart aside
I'm outta my head hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you


Summary: "To my ex - please come back to me. You have a big penis and I love it."



Cast Of Clowns, by Wolfgang

I
Father, I know now, your life's been stretched too long
Across paper torn and crumpled
Was drawn the garden that we've sown


You made me, you made me
You made So damn happy

Chorus
Wanting to fallow you around
But leading a cast of clowns
How could you expect me
To worship your name

II
Father, I know now
It's etched too deep in sand
I'm sorry...so so sorry
I couldn't wipe it with my hands


You made me, you made me
You made me so Unhappy

Chorus
You made the sky come down
But leading a cast of clowns
How could you expect me
To worship your name

Bridge
Father, I smile
Wings have stretched to the sky
When i look up at the heavens
I'll see your face in the stars at night
Again you made happy!

Coda
The stage has been turned down
The clowns have lost their crowd
Now just sleep well and sound
Quietly rest...


Summary: "To my dad - remember when you sexxed me in our backyard and again at the beach? I liked it but it scarred me for life. But now that you are dead and I am now a man, I will let sleeping dogs lie and bury the past with you and try to remember not the pain, but the happiness."



You Make Me Feel Brand New, by The Stylistics

I
My love
I'll never find the words, my love
To tell you how I feel, my love
Mere words could not explain

II
Precious love
You held my life within your hands
Created everything I am
Taught me how to live again


Only you care when I needed a friend
Believed in me through thick and thin
This song is for you and with gratitude and love

Chorus
God bless you
You make me feel brand new
For God blessed me with you
You make me feel brand new
I sing this song 'cause you
Make me feel brand new

III
My love
Whenever I was insecure
You build me up and made me sure
You gave my pride back to me

IV
Precious friend
With you I always had a friend
You're someone who I can depend
To walk a path that sometimes bends


Without you
Life has no meaning or rhyme
Like words to a song out of time
How can I repay you for having faith in me

Chorus
God bless you
You make me feel brand new
For God blessed me with you
You make me feel brand new
I sing this song 'cause you
Make me feel brand new


Summary: "To my ex - please come back to me. You have a big penis and I love it."



Other six songs, summarised, here and here!!!